I struggle to rest, to trust, and to let my husband lead. I struggle to not be discouraged. I want to take charge, when my husband’s behavior isn’t lining up with my ideals, or when he isn’t moving as quickly as I’d like or think he should. I have an expected game plan already in my head and when his will goes against it my “independent women” motto of “I’ll do it myself” comes out.
Know what that is……….F.E.A.R
Which is directly related to me allowing my spiritual life to fall by the way side in the middle of craziness.
And by the way, is the absolute worst time to lose your footing. It’s in times of confusion, stress, and discouragement that you need the sure and steady foundation of God’s word to stand on.
Yesterday was a rough day, it definitely didn’t go as planned, and I was growing a little frustrated and hurt. As a matter of fact, I had been growing quite frustrated quite easily lately with just about anything. This day particularly, I noticed certain emotions, feelings, and behaviors rising up in me from the past. In the middle of my hurt feelings and my pride, I set in my room last night scrolling through the feed on Facebook thinking every negative thought a person could think, then I felt prompted to pray instead of allow the thoughts to continue to roll through my mind.
I grabbed my “Power of a praying wives” book and quickly flipped open to a random prayer.
For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ (2 Corinthians 10:4-5)
It wasn’t too long before my hurt feelings began to soften. It’s amazing how prayer can completely change an attitude. It’s so important to remember who our warfare is against ladies; it’s NOT our man. But in those seasons when we allow distractions to get in the way and the voice of our flesh over powers the still small voice of our Lord, it can seem as though we are. In moments like this when I’ve allowed what’s most important to fall along the waist side I love this five letter word
He offers it, daily. No need for a Monday restart, just receive his loving hands, and let His gentle voice guide you back to where you need to be. I am striving to be the wife that He has called me to be, I fall short daily but His grace is sufficient for me in my weakness. I will thank God for my marriage and my husband daily, and focus on all the miracles he has done in our marriage.
Be encouraged and ponder on the following verse: And finally whatever things are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, having virtue, or anything praiseworthy, let us think on these things. (Philippians4:8)
Getting our mind right, is the first step in a revival of the soul!
Building strong marriages together,